ksolaris: (nana)
It's that time of year,
Leave all our hopelessnesses aside
(if just for a little while)
Tears stop right here,
I know we've all had a bumpy ride
(I’m secretly on your side)

How did you know?
It's what I always wanted,
You can never have too many of these
Will ya quit kicking me under the table?
I'm trying, will somebody make her shut up about it?
Can we settle down please?

It's that time of year,
Leave all our hopelessnesses aside
(if just for a little while)
Tears stop right here,
I know we've all had a bumpy ride
(I’m secretly on your side)

Bite your tongue
Deep breaths
Count to ten
Nod your head

I think something is burning,
Now you've ruined the whole thing
Muffle the smoke alarm
Whoever put on this music
Had better quick, sharp, remove it
Pour me another
Oh, don't wag your finger at me

It's that time of year,
Leave all our hopelessnesses aside
(if just for a little while)
Tears stop right here,
I know we've all had a bumpy ride
(I’m secretly on your side)

Will ya get me outta her, Get me outta here, Get me outta here
Just for now...

~ Imogen Heap, "Just For Now"

Goodbye, 2008. It was nice knowing you. I won't forget the lessons you've taught me, and the gifts you've given.

Hello, 2009. ^_^

Happy New Year, everyone. Stay safe and always love yourself.
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For the past two days, the only word that has been running over, under, through and sideways in my mind is: GODDAMMITOUCH!


I've been in PAIN for the past 2 days or so, because of a tooth that decided that it would be nice to act up now. The said tooth is at the farthest end of the left side of my upper jaw. I learned via Plurk friends that it's considered a molar, it's a wisdom tooth, and that the worst case scenario is that I may need minor surgery to take the bastard out.


Besides the constant, painful throbbing in my jaw, I can't even close my mouth properly. It's as if the rogue tooth decided to grow half an inch overnight, and I can't rest my upper teeth on my lower teeth because the painful upper tooth is being pushed farther into my gums by the tooth below it. I've also been prodding it with my tongue, and there seems to be a small, smooth lump right beside the bad tooth, on the roof of my mouth. It's tender, and the slightest pressure on it stings. I tried touching the tooth with my finger, and there's something... sharp on it. It's like the tooth is splintered or something.

The other, and possibly the most horrid thing about all this, is that the bad tooth keeps me from enjoying my food, and I absolutely hate it. I like eating, and I like having comfort food whenever I'm stressed. I'm particularly stressed right now, but eating causes me even MORE stress because of the pain.

And yes, in the middle of all this, I still manage to remember the punishment of Tantalus. Not funny.

I'm crossing my fingers that my health insurance covers the procedure, should it be necessary, because I could think of much better and definitely much more pleasant ways to spend my 5000 pesos, than handing it over to a dentist in order to have myself put through more horrors in order to defeat the first horror.

So far, I've been coping by drugging myself silly with mefanemic acid and sleeping a lot. It makes the pain go away, but it also literally leaves an unpleasant taste in my mouth. The effects also wear off in about 4-5 hours or so, so I need to keep popping one because I'd go crazy and bang my head on the nearest cement wall otherwise. I'm also dizzy from oversleeping, so it seems to be a Lose-Lose situation for me. T_T

Stupid me, though, I only decided to see a dentist yesterday afternoon. I woke up late because I forgot to set my alarm, and by the time I got to the MaxiCare office, all the dentists they got hold of were no longer accepting patients because it's almost 5pm. The most I could get is an appointment for today, after I finish work later.

Still 5 hours to go before the time of my dental appointment. In the meantime, lemme leave you with this video which pretty much sums up how I regard dentists in general. Everybody sing with me now: "I'M A DE~~NTIIIIST~~..."

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One of my friends from high school has recently introduced me to this song, and the first time that he made me listen to it, it pulled at my heartstrings. In fact, it stirred up so much in me, that it hurt.

Since that moment, days ago, a lot of things have been going through my head. A lot of the questions that I've been trying to put away at the back of my mind suddenly came rushing to the surface before I could even understand what was happening. Before I knew it, my knees were putty, and my chest felt like it was about to explode. My eyes stung, and I only managed to keep it together because I was seated at the time, and someone cracked a joke.

A few hours after that moment, we then attended early morning mass together as a group, and the priest gave a homily about second chances. Again, something stirred in me.

And so I've finally decided that this coming 2008, I'm going to try to defy gravity.

Something has changed within me, Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing, Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts, Close my eyes and leap


So if you care to find me, Look to the western sky; As someone told me lately - Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly... (Lyrics) )

(and all thanks to the glory that is YouTube, by the way...)

ksolaris: (tadakichi)
Yep, the prinnies which used to grace the header for my LJ have finally moved on, and have now been replaced by rascals from FFXII (I can't help it if I've fallen in love with the Ivalice critters). In short, I have a new layout. Yay! It's been a while since I messed about with Photoshop, so I'm pretty happy that my current layout was good enough in Ian's opinion. Hehe... though I did spend many nights and days pestering him in the shower and while he's sleeping to help me come up with a decent color scheme for the whole blog. :D

Anyhoo, fly my prinnies!

akai tsuki akai tsuki
tsumi o okashita monodomo no
kegare o kiyomeru akai tsuki
koyoi wa dare ga umarekawaru
koyoi wa dare ga...

Red moon, red moon...
Cleanses the sinful and makes them anew...
Shining brightly in the night sky,
waiting for the souls...
Who will be born again tonight?
Who will be born again tonight?
Be born again tonight?

Yeah, I've seen the ressurection scenes in both Disgaea: Hour of Darkness, as well as Makai Senki Disgaea, but each time that I do, I just turn to putty and break down into a flood of tears. And when "Akai Tsuki" starts to play, I am then further reduced into a heap of mush. Lolz. I am such a sap. XD

So from then on, I decided that an apt symbol of repentance for me would be a prinny. Thank you and good night.

PS. Just in case you were wondering, yes, we do own a ton of NipponIchi games and that's why we adore the Disgaea universe. We have the first Disgaea, Makai Kingdom and Disgaea 2: Cursed Memories. My personal favorite would be Makai Kingdom if only because Zetta is (in his own words) a badass freakin' overlord!!


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And once again, my entire high school life comes crashing down upon me, in waves of memories. And the trigger for the sudden trip down memory lane?

BUST A GROOVE, BABY!!!! *does her best impression of Kitty N... which is pretty lame...*

My goodness, it's been 10 years, and the songs from the Bustagroove soundtrack still make me dance until now. I still remember their stages, I still remember the unlockable characters, I still remember their routines when they go in Fever Mode.


By the way, has anyone else noticed that the English lyrics of Shorty's song is actually really sad...? O_O;;

My mama tells me everyday, not to move so fast across the room.
She's worried I'll break something,
but I'm at the age where i do what I wanna do.

I know I'm your baby, like you keep saying.
I wanna be free. Don't treat me like a child.
I'm never changin' as I grow older.
Forever the same, Shorty and the EZ-Mouse.

Hiro - The Natural Playboy (Hiro vs. Shorty)

Kitty N - Bust a Groove (Kitty N, practice stage)

Remember Shorty and Heat...? More videos! )
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King Without A Crown

You're all that I have and you're all that I need
Each and every day I pray to get to know you please
I wanna to be close to you, yes I'm so hungry
You're like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there's no me
You're the air that I breathe
Sometimes the world is dark and I just can't see
With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity
But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe
I'll stand on my own two feet
Won't be brought down on one knee
Fight with all of my might and get these demons to flee
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Out of darkness comes light, twilight unto the heights
Crown Heights burnin' up all through the twilight
Said, thank you to my God, now I finally got it right
And I'll fight with all of my heart, and all a' my soul, and all a' my might

Chorus 2x:
What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
I give myself to you now from the essence of my being
And I sing to my God songs of love and healing
I want Mashiach now, time we start revealing

Me no want no sinsemilla
That would only bring me down
Burn away by brain no way my brain is too compound
Elevate on my soul you're a fire in my sound
Like the sun over some rain earning up to a clowd
Torah food for my brain let it rain till I drown
Let the blessing's come down

Strip away the layers and reveal your soul
Give yourself up and then you become whole
You're a slave to yourself and you don't even know
You want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow
If you're trying to stay high then you're bound to stay low
You want God but you can't deflate your ego
If you're already there then there's nowhere to go
If you're cup's already full then its bound to overflow
If you're drowning in the waters and you can't stay afloat
Ask Hashem for mercy and he'll throw you a rope
You're looking for help from God you say he couldn't be found
Looking up to the sky and searching beneath the ground
Like a King without his Crown
Yes I wanna get down
King without his Crown
Yes I keep fallin' down
You really want to live but can't get rid of your frown
Tried to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground

What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole through the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being
And I sing to my God this song of love and healing
I want Mashiach now and it's time to starts revealing

Bridge 2:
Reelin' him in, reel in him
Where ya been
Where ya been for so long
It's hard to stay strong
I've been living in galus for a life too long
I said where you've been
Where ya been for so long



Who would have thought being a rastafarian Christian-Jew would be so cool? Love their video too, by the way. :)
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99 Red Balloons

You and I in a little toy shop
Buy a bag of balloons with the money we've got
Set them free at the break of dawn
'till one by one they were gone
Back at base, sparks in the software
Flash the message "something's out there"
Floating in the summer sky
Ninety nine red balloons go by

Ninety nine red balloons
Floating in the summer sky
Panic bells, it's red alert
There's something here from somewhere else
The war machine springs to life
Opens up one eager eye
And focusing it on the sky
The ninety nine red balloons go by

Ninety nine decisions treat
Ninety nine ministers meet
To worry, worry, super scurry
Call the troops out in a hurry
This is what we've waited for
This is it boys, this is war
The President is on the line
As Ninety nine red balloons go by

Ninety nine knights of the air
Ride super high-tech jet fighters
Everyone's a super hero
Everyone's a Captain Kirk
With orders to identify
To clarify and classify
Scramble in the summer sky
Ninety nine red balloons go by

As ninety nine red balloons go by

Ninety nine dreams I have had
In every one a red balloon
It's all over and I'm standing pretty
In this dust that was a city
If i could find a souvenir
Just to prove the world was here
And here is a red balloon
I think of you and let it go

Original German lyrics )
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K's Quote of the Day:

"You cannot convince a crying, bawling child to be quiet by shouting and screaming at it to be quiet. It merely doubles the noise and discomfort."


Before we begin:
I can finally have that secret room in my house... (as swiped from Neil Gaiman's blog)

and speaking of Gaiman... (from scans_daily)

K's Pictures of the day:
(as swiped from another dose of office spam...)

that looks painful...

more interesting signs )


I should be in Laguna right now. My officemate's dad has just finished the construction of a new chapel for their town and they wanted to celebrate. I should be feasting on a roast calf with gravy right now. But no. I'm stuck here again because of the damn broken knee. Sigh. More reason to find ways to speed up the healing process. If screaming at my knee bootcamp-style would do anything helpful, I would have bought a bullhorn by now... ~_~


It's rather sad to think that merely two months into the year, so many things have already gone wrong in this country. The accidents, the tragedies, the stupid political maneuvers...

Sigh. Personally, I believe that the best course of action for the moment is to keep holding on and try to make it through the day as a better individual, just as we always have for the past... oh, I don't know, 500 years? As much as we want change, as much as we want vast improvements, change never comes easy or overnight.

As for the rallies and the rallyists... well, to each his own. Every person has a different perception on how something may be solved, and often, a person not walking down your road doesn't necessarily mean that they're lost.

Some people like to solve their problems by walking down the road with a sign board and a bullhorn and letting the world know what they want, to bring their grievances to somebody's, anybody's attention. Others go to work and help keep the economy from crashing down. Others stay at home to give way to those who need to go to work. Others go shopping.

Different strokes for different folks. Everyone with a different role.

In the end, we all just want one thing.


From yesterday's hooplah, I've always figured that it's a bad idea to place ALL or MOST of the nation's important people in a single container building. It may be an indication that they are not afraid of being attacked, but what if someone took them up on their offer and dropped a bomb from the sky?

Also, another lesson than can be learned from all this? Timing is important. In the same way that it is vital when you're cracking a joke, timing can make or break a situation.

Another lesson? Do not poke at raw wounds.


The latest addition to my list of favorite things is walking home from work at 3 in the morning, buying an egg sandwich and a bottle of C2 Apple from the store accross the street, and then sitting on the front steps of my building, enjoying the warm food, the drink, the cool night and the refreshing breeze. Oh, and the occassional company of a local cat.

One of the things I like best about our building is that it is situated on a windy street and there are no other tall buildings around it. I've found that one of the joys of my heart is to sit there in the dark, musing over nothing and petting a round, fat tabby with a stubbed tail.

I've always believed that lots of more people would be a lot happier if they had pets and they took the time to sit down for a while and breathe. People forget how important that is.


Lem and I while we were joking around on YN: can't we just do what amidala did and call for a vote of no confidence? only this time we won't vote in palpatine?



I happened to catch the last 20 minutes of the movie The Thomas Crown Affair just earlier, and I can't believe that I've forgotten how cool the movie is, and it's not just because of Pierce Brosnan. That and the fact that the songs Windmills of Your Mind and Sinnerman are included in the soundtrack. ^_^


Note for non-Filipino readers:
Regarding what I've just written, it all stemmed from this event. What made everything extra-bad was the fact that the declaration was made on a day when the country was celebrating an event which pretty much symbolized the attainment of democracy and freedom from a tyrant who declared Martial Law years ago. The declaration is resulting in events that can be compared to things that happened while Martial Law was in effect.


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